Excerpt from Notes From Therapy | Rage
I feel angry when I feel disrespected,
I feel angry when I feel repressed,
I feel angry when I feel controlled,
I feel angry when I feel humiliated,
I feel angry when I feel treated unjustly,
It’s not just about disrespect
It’s not just about repression
It’s not just about control
It’s not just about humiliation
It’s about you taking away my dignity in that situation.
In another situation. And another.
Time and time again
Until it becomes caught. Contagious. Cancerous.
A spiraling, systemic disease.
Patriarchy is often the inciting incident that flames my rage. When another human being demeans me in public or wields aggression in my direction, I am consumed by a deep, burning, hate-inspired fire. After an episode, I often feel annoying amounts of helplessness, self pity, and despair. And then I invariably unleash that on others at another time or place. As a result, I truly believe patriarchal (or controlling, ignorant) behavior is the disease of our culture, of our nation, of our time.